Introducing: Pistachio the Magnificent.

We had another great appointment and finally feel okay with announcing that we will be adding to our family!

Justin has dubbed this baby Pistachio, and after all the acrobatics we saw today, is now calling him/her Pistachio the Magnificent. So without further ado...

I've also started a new blog dedicated entirely to The Littlest Nunley.

Happy Birthday Justin!

Today is Justin's golden birthday. He turns 27 on November 27th, 2009,

We haven't done much but Justin got to pick out where we ate for lunch: Panda Express (blech!). Tonight we are going to dinner at Rutherford Grill tonight with Anthony who is visiting from Hawaii.

Since Justin is the hardest person to shop for, he has decided he wanted pick out a new golf club, which we will order tonight.

Happy birthday, Babe!

Thanksgiving 2009

Usually Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. Since this year was a rough one I want to make sure to say how thankful I am for the good things in my life.

1. Justin. Without him I surely would have gone to the nut house.
2. Lola. Without her I wouldn't have had warm feet all those cold nights.
3. My job. Without it we would have been in a shelter by now.
4. The girls on TTCAL. They let me be as emotional, as irrational and as illogical as I want without judgment or persecution.

Thank you for all the good things.

Hooky!

Today I played hooky from work. Since Justin's been working on the weekends I figured I'd take an extra day and we would spend it together.

We'd been talking about going to the California Academy of Sciences in San Francisco, so we figured it would be a perfect day! We slept in until 8:00 (yes! 8:00!!!) and took our time getting ready. We left around 9:45 and missed all the traffic. We got there around 11:00 and to my surprise there were no lines. We walked right up and bought our tickets.

We were stopped just before we went in and asked if we wanted our picture taken. We obliged and said we'd check it out before we left just to see what it looked like. So we proceeded in and the first thing you see is a huge domed rainforest. It was amazing.

There were birds and butterflies just flying around everywhere! There were all kinds of reptiles and amphibians in enclosed display cases and even a huge water element with just as huge fish. I swear they were the biggest fish I've ever seen! One was about 7 feet long. No exaggeration!

Once in the rainforest exhibit you walk up a round walkway all the way to the top of the dome and then take an elevator down... all the way down below the water element. You could look directly up into the water and see all the fish and turtles. It was amazing. They had individual looking holes into different areas of the water where there were different types of sealife. We saw anacondas from the amazon and even an octopus, although he was hiding and a bit hard to find. A little further into the aquarium there was even an area where you could pet star fish. They really felt just like a rock.

Next we passed by the planetarium and got our passes for the 12:30 showing of "Journey to the Stars". We had about 30 minutes to kill until we needed to get in line, so we went to the African Room. That is where we found my favorite part: the penguins! They are so funny and interesting. There was this little girl who couldn't have been more than 4 and all she kept say was, "so silly!" It's true. They are just silly animals.

When it was time we got in line for the showing in the planetarium and before we knew it we were already in our seats. It was amazing. The seats are slightly tilted back so you don't have to strain to see what's being shown on the ceiling (which is also tilted). It was definitely interesting learning about the formation and life of stars and how they affect us in our every day life.

Once the showing was over we went to the museum cafe and had lunch. It was surprisingly better than I remember it being when I was in school.

On our way out we checked out the picture we had taken hours earlier and ended up buying it even though it was a ridiculous $19.95!

Fall has finally arrived!

Last week Justin's mom gave us a huge flat full of apples from his grandparent's orchard. (It's really just a bunch of apple trees on their land, but this year they produced so much fruit they might as well have sold it!)

I couldn't imagine what I was going to do with so many apples, so I researched some ideas and decided on apple pie and apple sauce.

I think my pie turned out pretty well! It doesn't look like Bobby Flay's, but I'm pretty happy with it!

Counting

Today,

I am grateful for friends who truly understand that actions speak louder than words.

I am grateful for good friends who know that sometimes cookies speak louder than words.

I am grateful for great friends who know that 5 dozen cookies can say more than words ever could.

Looking for the Silver Lining...

Today is possibly the worst day I have ever had. The worst part? I saw it coming.

After a week suspicion, and a weekend of worry and nerves I went to the doctor this morning to get the results of a series of blood tests. Unfortunately the news was not good. Apparently my body did not like the way the my little embryo was forming. My body decided that it was better to discard of it now than to let it proceed.

I'm not going to lie. This is devastating. We are so emotionally connected to this little life already that I cannot believe it's over before it even began. My doctor reassured me that this miscarriage is not an indicator of pregnancies to come, but that is very little consolation. All I can seem to do is cry. When I do find something to distract myself, it's usually only short lived thanks to a pregnant woman on a show I'm watching or an advertisement for diapers in a magazine.

I am trying to look forward to the fact that we can try again, but I am having a hard time getting around the question of why did this happen to us? Is it karma? Or genetics? Luck? I'm sure I'll never really know.

I've read that the grief, the crushing heartbreak, the devastating betrayal of my body I feel will dissipate, fade or even go away, but at this point I don't see that happening any time soon. But I suppose the only thing to do is to keep looking ahead. I hope by showing my appreciation for what I have, it will bring some peace to my heart. So I will remember to count my blessings. Starting today.

1. A wonderful husband
2. A snuggly dog
3. My health
4. A reliable job
5. A comfortable home
6. Supportive friends

Yes, I am grateful for these things in spite of what has happened.

It's just not fair.